Did I missed something out?

Still find myself falling back to you. except, you are not there anymore.

one crazy act quota daily and I just have to max it out.

so it was the 13th yday.

3 months ago, we were sitting in the car, you on your way to meet your friends, me on the way for filming. You popped the qn and I said yes and we were 2 happy lovebirds for awhile. We walked with a spring at our steps. We start the morning with a morning call and a morning kiss. We looked forward to time that we can stretch for dinner. Things were simple and happy.

3 months later. yday. Same scene in the car, except that the sense of distance was so wide, so wide, I could fall right into this black hole. I could no longer feel the sense of intimacy that we once shared, instead, there was a wall and I couldnt reach out to you. You got out of the car and I couldnt bear to watch you walk away so I drove away.

Alas! Farewells have to come. I have done all I could.

Come what may..

Goodbyes are difficult

I found myself breathless for a moment. The weird pangs at my chest.

I miss you but I will not allow myself to tell you that.

Every now and then, memories creep up on me. I tried to put up a good fight, tried to suppress it. Even tried to pretend that they didnt exist.

Why is it so difficult to nurse a heartache?

Hello. Its being awhile. I only remembered about this blog when you actually managed to google it.

Alot of things have happened in the last year, never expected it, much less prepared myself for it.

love.

It's a pity that our love wasnt strong enough to conquer the challenges thrown to us. Most of it, I cant change or make it better. I hope you will be happy and I hope someone else will make you happy as well.

The pain of losing someone will get lesser day by day. One day, I wouldnt miss you so much, I wouldnt think of what you are doing, I would try to care less. For now, its difficult. It's still too familiar. Rem the post it you left at my desk? It's still there. I miss you but I cant tell you.

Why me? Would we have lasted thru?