my best friend is getting married!

my best friend is getting married!

my best friend is getting married!

my best friend is getting married!

AND IM SO EXCITTTTED!!

so cute! Eleanor said smthng about Dorota is happily dating someone! i wonder if she goes out dating in her outfit! haha, dorota is so cute and she really cares for blair like she is her babysitter or smthng

anyways, the whole relationship thing in gossip girl is going so weird. like mass-trading of girlfriends.

n&b - b&c - b&n , c&v omg! but i really want blair and chuck, nate and v. perfect.

and s&d. are they ever getting tgt!

sometimes i get worried, trying to figure out if my dad is gng into this whole semi-retired lifestyle. business has been really slow lately, since there are not much imports or exports to speak, my dad comes home at 6pm almost everyday.

now, 6pm is a rarer than rare kind of rarity in the past, partly there are no official working hours in this line and im petty much used to him working really long hours. he used to work every holidays and every weekends. i think he worked too hard all his life, to provide for us. At least, he has the time to rest now and even picking up golf. No wonder i read an article recently, saying that fitness clubs are receiving crowds when no one is busy working their asses off.

but then again, i cant help bt worry abt the extent of this whole economic downturn thing, cos if this is running long term, it might not be too sustainable. afterall, there is only how much u can dig into your pockets before u feel the seams with ur fingertips.

for now, all is still good. still good, to have save up for the rainy days. how cheesy and its so hottt now!

i heard this song on idol and i thought unrequited love can never get sadder than this..



Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
cause I can't make you love me, if you don'tI

'll close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fightcause

I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hoursI
will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

i am so bummed over my stats paper today becuase i screwed it up with my weird calculations.

people just had to keep rubbing salt over my wound too. okay i know, its damn easy, now will u stop it.

sighs. i really dunnoe how anyone can be so insensitive you know?

i also cant believed i spent the entire week on this screwed up paper and i have not touched my 217 stuf at all.

mr tomorrow,please dont come knocking on my doors. :(

i need to get over thisssss

STUDY!!

hs 302 understanding social stats 16 april 9 to 11.30
mb 106 fundamentals of management 16 april 5 to 7

hs 217 social psychology 17 april 2.30 to 5

hs 203 economy and society 23 april 1 to 3.30

hs 308 sociology of emotions 27 april 1 to 3.30

sometimes, life just have to pile a mountain of shit and crap that is taller than u and i know how terrible it feels.

but my love, keep trying. im with you.

i think i need one.

baby blues is LOVE.

someone remind me to put up the babyblue strip for today. its super cute!

and someone remind me that exams start on the 16th! :(

im in need of a respite.
the semester is coming to end and there are lots of catching-up to do.

i wish someone would just stop making a big fuss out of nothng, jus let it go u knoww...
they go on and on abt how pathetic they are, nevermind the fact tt ur feeling much worse listening to their ramblings.

life isnt good at home. the papers have arrived and I dont know what to make out of it.
torn apart.

i know this would come eventually cos it is nt fair to my dad for dragging this on.
she has not been taking this well, esp when she has stop gambling for some time already. she asked, why push her to the walls, why and how wld i have the answer to this qn?
i dunnoe what to make out of it. she created this mess and we have been trying to cope with it for years. years of desperation, sadness and anger.

tell me. tell me.

im really tired.

its 4.42am nowwwwwwww


i really need to finish this damn essay but each word feels like a painful stratch. yucks