A lot of times,
I get really scared.
Tears rolled.

The lair as a home to many,
It has been a threat to mine,
A posing danger.

Like the dark rolling clouds,
Soon, the fat raindrops fall unto the ground.
You don’t really know when the rain is here
Till you feel the raindrops on your hair.

I don’t talk and certainly not ask.
It hurts to hear or
Be reminded of your change.

Have it ever occurred to you,
That you have changed?
A big change?

Someone so dear.
Someone I love.Yet
I feel I don’t know you anymore
A stranger now?

I cry out to God.
Asking him to change the things it is.
To take away the scary nightmare.

Alot of times,
I get really scared.
Tears rolled.

Mummy, mummy.
I still love you.
Will you change?

Will you heal daddy’s broken heart?
To build the trust like before?

Will you heal my broken heart?
Return me in your arms like before?

Will you heal my brother’s broken heart?
Make him feel safe and love like before?
Will you heal this home?
Rekindle the warmth and love?

Mummy, mummy.
Is it too much to ask?
Am I too greedy?

I promise to be a good girl.
Mummy. Mummy.
Will you promise me to be good too?

Alot of times,
I get really scared.
Tears rolled.

Mummy. Daddy.
I love you.

Oh God. Take the fear away.

these daes..

i HAte going home..

i LOve gng to school

school has become my refuge grounds..

where i smile.. i luff like crazy.. it simply take alot of stuf off my mind

i m so grateful for tt diversion.if not i might go mad any moment.

"how".. seems to be the only qn my mum can ask."how" seems to be the only reply i can offer..
hai..*sighs*

the rate at which my white hair is getting rather freaky. i see alot of white strands and i jus dyed it like one month and 13 days ago.. hmm.. scary huh.. can u imagine if i nv dyed it before.. wow..

Lord.. i pray fervantly.hear my cry.Guide us pls

.a minute of silence.

hai..

i totally screwed it up..

i want to scream..

wells.. part of the reason of screaming outside lt4 after econs lect or rather that was a shriek.. was either frm the weird realisation that co has gt even lesser ppl rite now or my horrendous results.

-bleaks-

evelyn !.. wake up.. wad is happening..
impending doom tt grips me wif so much fear that i .. sighs..

it resembles somethng like..

shouting for help in the dark, great Amazonian forest.. and noone seems to be able to rescue u nor actually.. even to hear u.. ay wait.. there is no soul in that forest..

oh wait.

did i create that forest .. frm not studying hard enuf.. not answering my essay qns smart n concise enuf.. banking on the right qns.. upgrading my brain puny ram space to a unlimited gmail ram space.. argh..

it also feels like drowning in a vast blue sea.. lets name it..
Pacific ocean.. hhaa.. well.. obviously.. the only available help is urself...

it also feels like leaving the house.. happily getting ready to buy that much awaited magazine or wad so ever.. n the sick realisation that u left ur wallet behind.. didnt tt parallel to studying tt thng before n later nt remembering wad u had jus read 5 mins ago..

argh.

i m in the lib.. wif lisa n ewis..

i m emitting heat as well!.. jocelyn!.. i m serious. we shld really haf invest in sunblock .. hee.. i m emitting heat like a uv radiator.. haha.. haha.. my back is burnt.. my face is red..only my left thigh is burnt.. my arms r burning.. haha.. help.. bt it was so much fun!..girl!.. been so long since i last spent tym wif ya..

happy to c u happy too!..

haha.. i m high..

oh wells..

oh yes.. i want to rant abt my tymtable.. tis rubbish!i haf 4 or more free periods a day.. n it drags my day to veh veh long cos of these breaks.. argggg.. n i lost my TGIF day!.. now.. i end sch at 5 on fri.. *grinds teeth*

aha.. i haf 3 free periods now.. n after econs tut n another 2 break.. crap..

-i miss ya-