i m veh emotional .. weariness overwhelmes... i dunnoe how to explain tt.. i broke down .. nt everythng at once. i really want to release.. unlash everythng... tricia smile at me.. she is a veh strong girl... her strength to put up wif wadever is happening is smply amazing.. really... i would nv haf tt much strength she had possess.. i would prefer to shrink in the darkness n live in my world of denials.. teng saes tt i look innocent... innocent lke a child?... i dunnoe... haha.... how i wish i m a child... a baby..oblivious to wadever is happening..smiling sweetly..n gazes at ur eyes...telling u everythng will b alrite.. jus lke the moon tt shines.. n embraces u wif the moonlight n lite up ur dim path... embraces u wif warmth once again...

i dunnoe wad i m toking abt... drey n jocelyn ... where r u?.. i miss the 2 of u.. wads happening in ur life?.. fill me lke how i would desperately want to fill u wif mine too... pls tell me tt thngs will alwaes n are still the same .. tt nuthng ever changes n will never change... pls tell me tt i m nt living in denials again...for i dun want to .. realms of denials.. are smtyms fill wif darkness n loneliness.. they are scary.. they makes me feel helpless.. lke how i feel now..

teng.. i m so so happy for u... may the r/s btn u n ur boy flourish.... flourish lke the field fill wif beautiful sunflowers.. n plenty of sunshine... lotsa laughter.. lotsa smiles... [hugs]...woman in love.. hehe...

i m tired.. physically n emotionally..