Chasing Rainbows

Haha.. cleaing my confused thots right now.. haf been hu si luan xianging these daes.. hahah.. dunnoe why..argh!

My dear joyce saes that i haf not really let it go.. ya.. i mean .. when i sit in for lectures these daes.. thots that go in in my head was lyk. How i wish i m advanced... haha.. oh for some ppl out there.. pls be glad that u r advanced.. cos there are alot of ppl who really want to be advanced.. sometyms i m jus pissed at the attitude some ppl haf..nvm.. its not within my control.. and i dun really care...i noe what stnds before me and i noe wad i need to do.. cynical thots may stl be there.. bt i m trying to drive them awae.. jus give me abit more tym.. other than that.. i m really ok..

Shucks... i haf alot of messed up thots in my head these daes.... i hate this..

Oh.. to someone ..u noe wad.. i m happy for u as long as u are happy.. didnt really see being so happy before.. haha.. gd this wae.. and i want thngs to remain this wae.. hahah..actually.. i rather fed up of all this dan lian...its lke so irritating.. i dun lke to thnk abt..[oh.. do i really lke him?.. is the feelings mutual?].. blah blah blah... ya.. i made up my mind... i dun want to let myself to fall for someone or simply..get myself emotionally attached...oh.. bt u noe wad... i dun need to thnk abt this at all in the first place cos..i wun find myself in that situation.. i mean .. look at me.. haha.. i better stop before i get bashed up..

Sometyms i wonder..i take a look arnd me at those ppl who are attached.. U noe some of them look so happy.. They look as happy being in the world of their own.. They look so in love wif each other and they look as though they dun need anymore people in the world... ya.. whenver they need someone to be there for them, they noe that someone will definitely be there...these are the ppl who makes u go.. how i wish i m in love.. bt look at some other ppl.. They seem to be in tears more than they are ever smiling.. they makes u thnk that you dun want to be in love..Some seems to be complaining abt their other half.. they jus find it so hard to actually keep that flame burning and it jus looks lke they are simply together for the sake of being together..... and it jus makes u go.. i dun want to be in love..ya.. lke wad someone actually told me.. love is smthng that u dun need to haf to carry on breathing.. mayb if u haf someone.. its gd to haf the another half.. bt if u dun haf one.. it doesnt matter .. ur life stl goes on... so dun look for it.. let it look for u..

Argh!.. i dunnoe wad i m blabbering abt so i shall jus stop toking abt this...

Another thng.. i m scared of someone..some ppl will agree wif me that the person is scary... eh.. pls strt toking cos at least we noe wad u r thnking abt.. veh scary when ppl jus appear out of nowhere..shant tok abt it anymore cos i feel lke a biatch.. ya...i wun be toking abt that person again..

Yup..was clearing out my drawers ydae.. and u noe wad.. its so nice to dump all those PW stuf.. evryone haf been toking abt it....PW IS FINALLY OVER!~..haha..boy m i so happy..anywae.. this entry is supposed to be up lke so long ago.. bt my pc is so freaking lagged...