orientation has finally ended.. initially.. morale n spirits were at bottom pit low.. haha.. bt that aside...we already haf done our best already.. so y not.. just sit down n enjoy.. and be a mad woman.. haha..its has ended at a veh high note.. hah.. if u look at me tt nite.. wad u prolly rem would be my veh veh high pitched scream!.. haha!..i nv knew i can make someone temporaily deaf and that i can ever scream so ever loudly.. hah... quack!.. haha

lectures resume.. n i thnk its kinda mean to the minorities that roxs!.. the tymtable!.. ewis was cancelling out the no of free periods we have on the temporary tymable.. and we kinda conclude that its quite useless to come.. bt stl.. i m here.. haha.. lols.. i m super crappy..okay.. i shall not waste web space anymore.. ciaos..

i m finally 18.. haha.. i stl dun feel it actually..in another 3 more mins .. the dae will be over...
haha.. like wad Azhar told me.. a year older means a year closer to your dreams, increased 1 stage of maturity.. haha.. thxs!.. thxs to all who really made my dae..love u all to bits!.. haha.. so sweet.. had such a lovely dinner wif janice, kent,ivy,alicia and clavin.. haha..the reggies are aso sweet too!.. haha.. i thnk my parents forgt .. no celebration in my hse... hai.. some forgt too.. bt its okay... the dae is gng to be over.. as i sing myself the song and make a wish and blow off the candle of my bdae cake.. gd nites..

i m so tired.. bt i m so proud of reg 5!.. u ppl are getting there!.. haha.. yay1.. haf lotsa fun n be even more enthu ya!.. haha

[when i get older.. i kinda dun want birthdaes to arrive.. cos it smtyms get so sad..so sad that u jus feel like crying at nite.. tears are only reserved until the clock strikes 12..i dun like it.. 2 birthdaes like tt has passed]

cell session on saturday was really.. wow.. i haf no words to describe it.. my volume of vocab is too limited to describe the amount of impact ... i felt that i really have to invite my brother to chruch service todae.. i really felt the need to .. that strong sense of urgency...my prayers was finally answered.. Praise the Lord!.. tears fell when i was watching the Passion of the Christ.. it was really touching n heart wrenching... tears fell again to see my brother coming forward for alter call and him reciting the sinner's prayer and him receiving Christ into his life!!!!...haha.. i was elated... sudden outburst of joy.. haha

oh ya.. zone 2 was so sweet.. hahah.. felt so loved.. hhaa.. love u guys.. !..bt strangely.. i dun feel that i m gng to b a year older..hah...

orientation strting tmr.. hmm... i hope and really want it to be happening .. !.. =)..

rise up.. soldiers of the Lord.. rise up and fight the battle strong.. Put on ur shining armour as the Holy spirit and the Lord be with u..

After a minute, she was utterly deflated,she lowered her head to her folded arms. SHe was suddenly dreadfully tired. And sad. Profoundly sad.She dint know why, but there it was.

With her head on her arms, she began to cry again.It was quiet and deep now, a soulful weeping, the venting of so many confused emotions that tears were the only possible form of expression..

--An accidental Woman, Barbara Delinsky

i m veh emotional .. weariness overwhelmes... i dunnoe how to explain tt.. i broke down .. nt everythng at once. i really want to release.. unlash everythng... tricia smile at me.. she is a veh strong girl... her strength to put up wif wadever is happening is smply amazing.. really... i would nv haf tt much strength she had possess.. i would prefer to shrink in the darkness n live in my world of denials.. teng saes tt i look innocent... innocent lke a child?... i dunnoe... haha.... how i wish i m a child... a baby..oblivious to wadever is happening..smiling sweetly..n gazes at ur eyes...telling u everythng will b alrite.. jus lke the moon tt shines.. n embraces u wif the moonlight n lite up ur dim path... embraces u wif warmth once again...

i dunnoe wad i m toking abt... drey n jocelyn ... where r u?.. i miss the 2 of u.. wads happening in ur life?.. fill me lke how i would desperately want to fill u wif mine too... pls tell me tt thngs will alwaes n are still the same .. tt nuthng ever changes n will never change... pls tell me tt i m nt living in denials again...for i dun want to .. realms of denials.. are smtyms fill wif darkness n loneliness.. they are scary.. they makes me feel helpless.. lke how i feel now..

teng.. i m so so happy for u... may the r/s btn u n ur boy flourish.... flourish lke the field fill wif beautiful sunflowers.. n plenty of sunshine... lotsa laughter.. lotsa smiles... [hugs]...woman in love.. hehe...

i m tired.. physically n emotionally..

i m so tired.. ZzZ...
kp getting dizzy todae.. the world is spinning .. hah.. seems lke merry go rnd lyk tat.. haha..ogl camp was alot of fun.. bt tiring!.. haha..Reggie!.. haha.. was never this attached to being a reggie before..

i m so tired.. i want to slp.. hhaa...my whole wk is so packed.. help... [Lets get it srtred!] is struck in my head.. that dance is so cool.. haha

nites...ZzZz

haha.. mugging in the library now.. well.. okay.. mayb not now.. bt i was... haha.. *crappy me*.. lols.. congrats to the seniors..!.. so proud of ya guys...gd srt to a new sch trying to make its mark.. well.. i really believe that mj will rise.. haha.. enuf of tt..

i haf been gng on a blinge.. on no.. look at the pimples.. nice.. red!.. evidences .. haha..
tt is nt gd.. help me..
nuthng much to blog actually.. actually the rule of the thumb is .. when u haf nuthng to blog.. dun blog rite.. haha.. bt ya..i need an distraction..

lately.. i find myself slipping into my own prison cell.. or mayb call it another physical realm..i shut myself in it.. n i look lost n spaced out.. dunnoe wads wrong.. lols.. i m losing myself.. or mayb its another form of my self denials again..

till again..

ONe waY..--United

i lay my life down at your feet
cause you're the only one i need
i turn to you and you were always there
in trouble times its you i seek
i put you first thats all i need
i humble all i am all to you

one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for
one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for

you are always always there
everyhow and everywhere
your grace abounds so deeply within me
you will never ever change
yesterday today the same
foever till forever meets no end

one way Jesus
your the only one that i could live for
one way Jesus
your the only one that
i could live for

one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for
one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for

you are the way the truth and the life
you live by faith and not by sight for you
we live it all for you (4 times)

one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for
one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for

one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for
one way Jesus
your the only one
that i could live for