"I am writing the story that will never end in my heart."
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"I am writing the story that will never end in my heart."
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I will be working on the first of dec for a period of 1 week.. i cant wait to be working with someone.. =) .. i noe i m not putting much hope.. bt i m stl happy.. =) .. Read this bk some tym ago.. jus thot i wil share them I like these phrases... [You are a little sad because it is as though some possibility is lost..] [They are ore afraid of you than you are afraid of them.] [For a while, I am not sure what will happened. So much will change and so much must change.] .. hai... Christmas is drawing veh near.. i love Christmas and i still do,... its my favourite festival of the year..hai.. when i m young.. we used to celebrate Christmas together with my relatives of my dad’s side.. we haf my grandparents, my 3 aunties, my 2 uncles, my my 3 cousins.. haha .. ya.. we used to haf alot of fun... shopping for prezzies to fill the whole Christmas tree.. putting up the Christmas tree art my granny’s hse.. decorating it.... playing all the nice Christmas jingles songs.. it was a really veh homely, feeling..all of us look forward to Christmas.. it was alot of fun preparing the turkey too!.. hai.. i miz the feeling.. yup. Since young... i m veh close to the paternal side of the family... ya.. i grew up in that family....it had alot of influence in me.. ya...i LOVE my Granny .. i love my Aunties... i HATE that conflict.... i hate that thng that pull us all apart.. its a veh veh long story... if u r interested... jus ask me ba..now we no longer go to my granny’s hse lke we used to every Sunday.. some tyms.. That thot jus drives me to tears... ya.. i miz them alot..i noe that conflict will never be resolve.. u can never understand how much i dun like that second uncle... i dun understand it myself.. i dun understand how one can be driven by greed so much ... i miss them so much.. i want to spend my usual Sundays there... i want to sit in that big round black table and have dinner with them .. i want to be telling them wad has been going on in my life... it has started since i was born and it has ended since i was in sec 3.. ya.. it has been sucha long long tym..hai bt nevertheless... i stl love love Christmas.. it warms my heart... i cant wait for Christmas... granny.. i hope u are still as healthy.. i hope u r smiling everyday.. ah-ma~ hahah.. i went on my long awaited shopping spree.. haha.. i love shopping.. lala.. haha.. my mum was lyk.. wow.. dorothy perkin's jeans with a nice sequins belt..$79 giodano velvety type jeans ..$45 giodano belt..$19 2 giodano ladies polo tee..$38 haha.. i want to shop somemore...updating later.. gng for dinner now.. super pek chek now.. ah!.. i hate this.. Summary at a glance.. Ydae was not a veh dae..thngs are jus dumping onto me.. ok lar.. i noe its the small thngs.. ok.. stl..let me lament... The misunderstanding had been cleared... ok gd.. i dun want to lose a fren... Hai.. y do i want to work.. i work because.. I want to help pay off my phone and internet bills.. I dun want to be a burden to my parents.. I thnk i m rather an “expensive” daughter to raise... I want to save up for another holiday... I simply adore the idea of a breakaway.. I want to get the so many thngs tt i like.. Its not veh nice to keep asking my parents to pay... I want up more to decorate my new room.. Lastly. Christmas is coming.. Tt’s means prezzie.. I want to get nice thngs for my parent.. And my bro as well.. Yup.. tt’s y i chose to work..i felt so much lke a wet blanket.. its lke.. in my opinion.. i thot it would be not much of a diff whether i m there anot .. eh.. i dunnoe how to phrase myself..its hard to find words to describe how i feel now.. bt i dun mean it.. and i dun wna to turn dwn the job offer.. yet.. i want to spend tym at the chalet..wadever.. hopefully.. eveyhtng will be sorted out at the briefing wif my aunty..yeap.. todae at 3.30pm... Lastly.. [i love u not cause i need u.. bt i need u cos i love u] its not address to anyone.. bt i jus love it.. haha... i m finally able to blog.. my pc is pronounced dead.. haha.. it was freakin infected wif viruses and trojans and wad haf u .. tt i dunoe how to fix it up. haha.. nvm someone will be coming n try to fix it up.. so i m in sch.. didnt attend any lessons todae... ahha.. no ptn.. yup.. todae is shu ying's bdae todae. happy bdae ger!.. haha..i want to work bt i cant seem to find a job ...esp when the o's are finishing and i only want to work for a short period of tym only.. yup.. any idea, anyone? If someone comes into ur life.. and for some reason.. he couldnt stay.. dun cry so much.. jus be gald that somehow.. ur paths crossed.. and somehow.. he managed to make u happy even for a while.. yup.. read this soemwhere last tym.. hai.. ciaos.. Haha.. cleaing my confused thots right now.. haf been hu si luan xianging these daes.. hahah.. dunnoe why..argh! My dear joyce saes that i haf not really let it go.. ya.. i mean .. when i sit in for lectures these daes.. thots that go in in my head was lyk. How i wish i m advanced... haha.. oh for some ppl out there.. pls be glad that u r advanced.. cos there are alot of ppl who really want to be advanced.. sometyms i m jus pissed at the attitude some ppl haf..nvm.. its not within my control.. and i dun really care...i noe what stnds before me and i noe wad i need to do.. cynical thots may stl be there.. bt i m trying to drive them awae.. jus give me abit more tym.. other than that.. i m really ok.. Shucks... i haf alot of messed up thots in my head these daes.... i hate this.. Oh.. to someone ..u noe wad.. i m happy for u as long as u are happy.. didnt really see being so happy before.. haha.. gd this wae.. and i want thngs to remain this wae.. hahah..actually.. i rather fed up of all this dan lian...its lke so irritating.. i dun lke to thnk abt..[oh.. do i really lke him?.. is the feelings mutual?].. blah blah blah... ya.. i made up my mind... i dun want to let myself to fall for someone or simply..get myself emotionally attached...oh.. bt u noe wad... i dun need to thnk abt this at all in the first place cos..i wun find myself in that situation.. i mean .. look at me.. haha.. i better stop before i get bashed up.. Sometyms i wonder..i take a look arnd me at those ppl who are attached.. U noe some of them look so happy.. They look as happy being in the world of their own.. They look so in love wif each other and they look as though they dun need anymore people in the world... ya.. whenver they need someone to be there for them, they noe that someone will definitely be there...these are the ppl who makes u go.. how i wish i m in love.. bt look at some other ppl.. They seem to be in tears more than they are ever smiling.. they makes u thnk that you dun want to be in love..Some seems to be complaining abt their other half.. they jus find it so hard to actually keep that flame burning and it jus looks lke they are simply together for the sake of being together..... and it jus makes u go.. i dun want to be in love..ya.. lke wad someone actually told me.. love is smthng that u dun need to haf to carry on breathing.. mayb if u haf someone.. its gd to haf the another half.. bt if u dun haf one.. it doesnt matter .. ur life stl goes on... so dun look for it.. let it look for u.. Argh!.. i dunnoe wad i m blabbering abt so i shall jus stop toking abt this... Another thng.. i m scared of someone..some ppl will agree wif me that the person is scary... eh.. pls strt toking cos at least we noe wad u r thnking abt.. veh scary when ppl jus appear out of nowhere..shant tok abt it anymore cos i feel lke a biatch.. ya...i wun be toking abt that person again.. Yup..was clearing out my drawers ydae.. and u noe wad.. its so nice to dump all those PW stuf.. evryone haf been toking abt it....PW IS FINALLY OVER!~..haha..boy m i so happy..anywae.. this entry is supposed to be up lke so long ago.. bt my pc is so freaking lagged... Blogging .. ya .. here i am... haha.. tried to study for chinese.. bt.. the words sorta did a little dance right in front of me.. cant perked myself to study chinese.. esp.. this yr.. when we are jus given a whole book of words and phrases.. sheesh.. its so boring!.. Haf been quite sick these daes.. had a little bit of drama ydae.. went to the doc.. haha.. apparently.. i had a fever for 5daes.. and headache.. and a little backache.. and runny nose.. so the doc classified me as suspected dengue case.. ya.. so i did a blood test... not tt horrifying as i thot it will be.. the 30 mins wait was more horrifying .. ya .. its lke.. if i really gt it.. the one wk stay wif the needle poking onto me all the tym is so.. Ya.. finally.. backed at the docs.. he said i m ok.. bt if my fever dun subsides .. i will haf to go for more bloodtest..*pouts*.. U shld haf seen the size of my antibiotics..its huge!.. nt tt i cant swallow pills.. bt if u look at it.. u get Goosebumps.. and i haf to take 2 of tt each tym!.. hahaa.. bt for some reason.. i feel veh weak and ya.. chest hurts alittle .. so made a call to the doc again.. he asked me to stop tt darn medication.. i m so gald to!.. haha.. m supposed to be gng back to the docs.. bt.. c how lo.. mayb after chinese ppr.. the needle poke mark on my arm refuses to go away.. hai.. finally found the lyrics to the song....!.. extracted frm azhar’s blog.. thxs!... =) Fixing A Broken Heart There was nothing to say The day she left Just filled a suitcase full of regrets I held a taxi in the rain Looking for someplace to ease the pain Then like an answered prayer I turned around and found you there You really know where to start Fixing my broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart Fixing a broken heart Oh yeah Now I don't understand what I'm going through There must be a plan that lead me to you Because the hurt just disappears In every moment that you are near YeahJust like an answered prayer You made the loneliness easy to bear You really know where to start Fixing my broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart Fixing a broken heart Soon the rain will stop falling baby And I'll forget the past Cause here we are at last You really know where to start Fixing a broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart Fixing a broken heart Fixing a broken heart To fix a broken heart .. i thnk its veh hard .. its hard to heal those crack.. and to plaster those crack lines smooth..most of the tym.. we jus gaf it up in the process.. whether its fixing one’s broken heart or letting ur own broken heart be healed.. either way.. its takes a lot of courage to give and the latter, to receive..bt wadever it is.. accept all there is to come.. and may happiness knock on ur doors.. =)
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